can't sleep?/ god speaks to me!!!!

Ok so it's just hitting 12:00 a.m so it would be Thursday. My bed time is usually around 10:00 on school nights. And I'm still up. why? I don't know. maybe I do......
Well I just got done doing my dishes a few mins ago. Something to do since I can't sleep. It's like there is something on my mind, but I can't go to sleep until I found out what it is.
I keep having this feeling that god is trying to tell me something, I just can't seem to find out what it is. Is he trying to tell me something? or is it something else? I'm clueless right now it's not even funny.
If he is, then why not explain more, better than me sitting here being clueless and not knowing what to do. Well guess what, thats what I'm going to do. sit right here waiting, .... waiting on a clue or something to help me.
20 mins. later.........
Ok so right now tears are coming out of my eyes. I'm really confused right now. I believe god gave me these words. 1st word is REASON, 2nd GIVE. Those two were givin to me about the same time and later on the 3rd word is SEE, 4th HEVENLY. Those two were also givin to me about the same time. Well I put them together an all I could come up with is "The REASON to GIVE your life is to SEE HEVENLY. Something like that. But that don't make scence. God wants me to give my life? I don't know. So I got my bible put my hands on it an with my eyes closed I got my right hand an picked a ramdom page, with my eyes still closed. Then my hand hit the page, the spot where my hand had landed it said " ye shall not need to fight in ye still, and see the salvation of the lord with you, O Judah and Jerusalem: fear not, nor be dismayed; tomorrow go out against them: for the lord will be with you"2 Chronicles 20:17
Then I was fliping throw the pages till I found the first red printed sentences an that said
" Suffer it to be so now: for this is becometh us to fulfill righteousness." St. Matthew 3:15

Well now it's 1:00 a.m WOW!!!! Time flew by fast. So I got this other Bible" Childrens Bible" and I looked up the same scripture's So I could explain more an not misunderstand anything. It says something like "I won't need to fight in this battle. Just for me to stand strong in my place. And that i will see the Lord save me. And for me to not be afraid. So go out against people tomorrow....."

That struk me. TOMORROW??? I wonder what people.
And for Matthew 3:15 It said something like "We should do all right from now"

I see it now. I can see the message he is sending me. It's coming all clear now.
It sure is amazing how he gives us answers.

WOW... I'm actually getting tired now. (lol)
Well I will close here so I can go get some sleep. I get up about 5:00 a.m so I would now have like 4 hours of sleep......fun!

Misty Engel

Inside people's mind!!*

Have you ever walked by anyone on the street wondering what son there mine? Just wondering what they are thing about? You don't even have to walk by them to think that what about your sitting at home an out of the blue you start wondering whats on a celebrity mind right out? something like that.

Well I do Im sure you have at one point in your time.

Like my friends, I wonder whats going on in their mind about me? either good or bad? Well I sure hope it's not bad?

Why do you think it's natural for human's to think these ways? why do we put our self throught all this stress? For us just wanting to know what someone thinks about out? why are we so worried all the time?

Well I suppose it's natural to us humans, WE ARE HUMANS AREN'T WE!!!! or do we come from a different planet that no one knows about an we just act like these so call humans? hmmm..... think about that you guys...(lol)

Now really who are we? are we trying to be someone where not?

Well I sure no that Im not. I'm my own self what about you?

It's a Monday morning 9:21 am, just got in my second block class.

So tell me, what was the first thing that came to your mind when you woke up this morning?..... When you left your house did you make your bed? Did you tell your mom or the person you live with that you love them before you left? When you walked out of the house into the cold, standing their knowing that you have a ride to school, waiting to pick you up. Have you ever thought once how lucky you are? Knowing that their is someone their to wake you up for school on time or having and alarm clock to do so. Have you ever thought just once how lucky you are to have a bed to make after you wake up from it? Have you you ever thought how lucky you are to have someone to tell them that you love them before you leave the house. Have you ever thought just once how lucky you are to have a parent, a parent to get on you for doing something bad. And you say you have it hard in life....(ha)

What about the people that don't have a bed to sleep in or a bed to make after they wake up. What about the people that don't have anyone to tell them that they love them. What about the people that don't have no way to school on a cold day. what about the people that don't have no one to wake them up for work or school? What about the people that has no parents to teach them right from wrong.

So your parents give you money when you ask them for some, to walk up to the store, or go to the movies something like that. But that day they said no, so you get all mad at them for not giving you any money. Your getting mad for nothing STOP IT!!!. Did you work for that money? hmmm.... yeah didn't think so. But people out there work all the time everyday to support their family or there self but look what they get...... and their not getting all mad, when they should be. Why don't you take a few mins. and look over your life. Look at all the details, all the times when you never got your way, and the times when you did get your way for nothing you've done...... alot huh? thats pretty sad. well I was once like you but I changed. I remember I was one of those people. I make my bed, I told my foster mom that I love here and thanks for all she does.
TRUTHS: I use to not have a bed to wake up from. I woke up from a cold hard tile floor with a pocket knife by my side. I had no one to go to.
Next time make your bed before you leave and tell your mom you love her. You never know, you may not come back

Misty Engel

Well on this blog I thought I might share with you about my dreams. It"s hard to explain so deal with me.

The dreams I have are normal but like little parts of them....................ok let me stop right here brfore I start to confuse you. Im gonna start from some where else.
Ok so everyone has dreams right? yeah!, so lets say the dreams that I had a little while ago. Like parts of my dreams actually comes true in real life.
For example: I had a dream last night an weeks , a month , or months later that part of my dream actually happens it's not like this happens with all my dreams just some.
The parts in my dreams that really happens don't really make any sense because there is no point for it but my other dreams little parts of them that happenes means something. But I never know what part of the dream is going to come true or when it will because some does an some don't. It's freaky. And when a part or my dream does comes true I would be thinking in my mind like "hey that happened in my dream that I had a little while ago." I don't get it but yeah this is true.

Some of this explains why this happens. Im guessing because my grandpa he was physic. He knew what was gonna happen like more than a few years into the future. He told my mom that she was going to lose her house an everything. He was sick when he told her this. He had cancer then. And after he told my mom that she said don't worry about me, worry about you. But yeah what he said had came true. But he didn't dream about it he seen it. And what I see in the future only happens in my dream and it's only little things that happens nothing big.
I don't understand either and don't know if this will ever stop. And whats scary about this is that I don't know which part of the dream is going to happen. I could dream about something bad and I wouldn't know if that would happen or not or when it could happen.
Well I don't know if you understand this but it's the best I can explain it I guess.

MIsty Engel