Why do friends do this? why are they even called friends?

What is it?

why did you bring me this far?

What did you plan on me doing here?

What is my purpose doing here?

Who am I supposed to help out here?

Why are you taking me towards this path?

What joy will I bring. No one needs me anymore. Well that's what I feel like. I know it's not true but that's how I feel an this is why...... My WAS best friend is now not. She started hanging with these other kids and most likely totally forgot about me. She doesn't even notice yet an that's pretty sad I would say OR it's just that she has noticed and just don't even give a crap. Well I don't know and I really don't wanna know. I don't get how she can forget about someone like that.... not just someone..."ME" her friend.

After all the times she asks me for help with her problems I help her, I don't turn her down like she does me. I guess that shows You who's the better person is I suppose. But when I ask her for help or tell her why I'm feeling sad and she changes to another subject an talks about whatever else. But yeah I still help her when she asks. I never let anyone down if they need help.

So yeah I guess I will find that special friend someday in life.